this is just a start.. maybe I'll wind up writing this fabulous tribute.. maybe I'll post memories.. who knows..I dont know where to begin.. I still hurt.. I hurt for myself..my friends, his girls, Vickie, his fans.. anyone and everyone he touched..

one night.. it was May of 1995 actually.. ECW had a show that night in Philly.. Eddy wore my favorite ring jacket.. which was his tribute to his fallen partner and friend.. Love Machine Art Barr. Back at the hotel, we planned on going to get some food at Denny's along with Marty Jannetty, who Eddy was rooming with, Eddy came into the room and with this huge smile on his face.. I swore he was up to something. He told me that he got word that Arthur's girlfriend had had the baby.. Arthur passed away in November in 1994, and at the time of his death his then girlfriend never had the chance to tell him she was pregnant. Now, 7 months later, Arthur lived again in his new daughter and Eddy couldnt have been more happier as if it was one of his girls being born. Man.. his girls.. he loved them.. would always bring pics to the shows and I felt like I watched them grow, be born.. all of it..

Its hard to believe when in August of 95.. I cried and said goodbye to him.. he promised me I would see him again.. yeah.. in WCW and WWF I had.. and was very lucky to keep in touch over all the years.. get occasional calls when he was in town.. played phone tag.. but now.. as I sit here.. 10 years later.. I cry.. I hurt, I mourn a wonderful man, husband, father, friend and inspiration to millions...knowing.. it wont be until my day comes.. that I'll see him again.

vaya con dios eduardo.. te amo,
your lil mamacita :)

Im numb.. Im sad.. Im angry..

Hopefully I can gather my thoughts and think of something perfect to say about my Eddy bear.

I miss you already Goo-Goo

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BEDFORD, N.Y. (Oct. 11) - Christopher Reeve, the star of the ''Superman'' movies whose near-fatal riding accident nine years ago turned him into a worldwide advocate for spinal cord research, died Sunday of heart failure, his publicist said. He was 52.

Reeve fell into a coma Saturday after going into cardiac arrest while at his New York home, his publicist, Wesley Combs told The Associated Press by phone from Washington, D.C., on Sunday night. His family was at his side at the time of death.

Reeve was being treated at Northern Westchester Hospital for a pressure wound, a common complication for people living with paralysis. In the past week, the wound had become severely infected, resulting in a serious systemic infection.

''On behalf of my entire family, I want to thank Northern Westchester Hospital for the excellent care they provided to my husband,'' Dana Reeve, Christopher's wife, said in a statement. ''I also want to thank his personal staff of nurses and aides, as well as the millions of fans from around the world who have supported and loved my husband over the years.''

Reeve broke his neck in May 1995 when he was thrown from his horse during an equestrian competition in Culpeper, Va.

Enduring months of therapy to allow him to breathe for longer and longer periods without a respirator, Reeve emerged to lobby Congress for better insurance protection against catastrophic injury and to move an Academy Award audience to tears with a call for more films about social issues.

''Hollywood needs to do more,'' he said in the March 1996 Oscar awards appearance. ''Let's continue to take risks. Let's tackle the issues. In many ways our film community can do it better than anyone else. There is no challenge, artistic or otherwise, that we can't meet.''

He returned to directing, and even returned to acting in a 1998 production of ''Rear Window,'' a modern update of the Hitchcock thriller about a man in a wheelchair who becomes convinced a neighbor has been murdered. Reeve won a Screen Actors Guild award for best actor.

''I was worried that only acting with my voice and my face, I might not be able to communicate effectively enough to tell the story,'' Reeve said. ''But I was surprised to find that if I really concentrated, and just let the thoughts happen, that they would read on my face. With so many close-ups, I knew that my every thought would count.''

In 2000, Reeve was able to move his index finger, and a specialized workout regimen made his legs and arms stronger. He also regained sensation in other parts of his body. He had vowed to walk again.

''I refuse to allow a disability to determine how I live my life. I don't mean to be reckless, but setting a goal that seems a bit daunting actually is very helpful toward recovery,'' Reeve said.

Reeve's support of stem cell research helped it emerge as a major campaign issue between President Bush and John Kerry. His name was even mentioned by Kerry earlier this month during the second presidential debate.

His athletic, 6-foot-4-inch frame and love of adventure made him a natural, if largely unknown, choice for the title role in the first ''Superman'' movie in 1978. He insisted on performing his own stunts.

Although he reprised the role three times, Reeve often worried about being typecast as an action hero.

''Look, I've flown, I've become evil, loved, stopped and turned the world backward, I've faced my peers, I've befriended children and small animals and I've rescued cats from trees,'' Reeve told the Los Angeles Times in 1983. ''What else is there left for Superman to do that hasn't been done?''

Though he owed his fame to it, Reeve made a concerted effort to, as he often put it, ''escape the cape.'' He played an embittered, crippled Vietnam veteran in the 1980 Broadway play ''Fifth of July,'' a lovestruck time-traveler in the 1980 movie ''Somewhere in Time,'' and an aspiring playwright in the 1982 suspense thriller ''Deathtrap.''

More recent films included John Carpenter's ''Village of the Damned,'' and the HBO movies ''Above Suspicion'' and ''In the Gloaming,'' which he directed. Among his other film credits are ''The Remains of the Day,'' ''The Aviator,'' and ''Morning Glory.''

Reeve was born Sept. 25, 1952, in New York City, son of a novelist and a newspaper reporter. About the age of 10, he made his first stage appearance - in Gilbert and Sullivan's ''The Yeoman of the Guard'' at McCarter Theater in Princeton, N.J.

After graduating from Cornell University in 1974, he landed a part as coldhearted bigamist Ben Harper on the television soap opera ''Love of Life.'' He also performed frequently on stage, winning his first Broadway role as the grandson of a character played by Katharine Hepburn in ''A Matter of Gravity.''

Reeve's first movie role was a minor one in the submarine disaster movie ''Gray Lady Down,'' released in 1978. ''Superman'' soon followed. Reeve was selected for the title role from among about 200 aspirants.

Active in many sports, Reeve owned several horses and competed in equestrian events regularly. Witnesses to the 1995 accident said Reeve's horse had cleared two of 15 fences during the jumping event and stopped abruptly at the third, flinging the actor headlong to the ground. Doctors said he fractured the top two vertebrae in his neck and damaged his spinal cord.

While filming ''Superman'' in London, Reeve met modeling agency co-founder Gae Exton, and the two began a relationship that lasted several years. The couple had two sons, but were never wed.

Reeve later married Dana Morosini; they had one son, Will, 11. Reeve also is survived by his mother, Barbara Johnson; his father, Franklin Reeve; his brother, Benjamin Reeve; and his two children from his relationship with Exton, Matthew, 25, and Alexandra, 21.

No plans for a funeral were immediately announced.

A few months after the accident, he told interviewer Barbara Walters that he considered suicide in the first dark days after he was injured. But he quickly overcame such thoughts when he saw his children.

''I could see how much they needed me and wanted me... and how lucky we all are and that my brain is on straight.''

just wanted to thank everyone who has IMed me, emailed me or sent me lil e-cards for my birthday.. my biggest shock of all was the phone call I received at EXACTLY midnight.. it meant more than you could ever know.. so thanks.. and good luck in all that you do..

i'm gonna veg out some more.. I'm not myself.. something else subconciously is going on with me.. I'm not happy on my birthday and all day yesterday I was just rather sad.. I'm feelin the same now..

I'll be back later..

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carry me to my home ;-)

I'm leaving for the airport from LA in about 20 min for my red-eye flight home..

see ya'll when i get in..

:)

well.. its coming to my attention i have some people who like to go and let others know about what I'm talking about in my LJ.. let's go over that again.. MY LJ!! whatever I wanna say.. and about who I want I can.. this is a country that believes in freedom of speech, right? well.. in that aspect.. from now on..I have to make my entries "friends" only.. I would have NEVER.. EVER thought I would have to do this.. but.. I guess I do.. hopefully it wont have to last too long., but we'll see..
if you're not on my friends list and you want to me.. email me and let me know..

TTFN :)

something i learned while cleaning.. I have ALOT of shoes.. I mean.. ALOT.. I think for every Chris Jericho figure i have... I must have 2 pairs of shoes.. (just a note.. I have just about every Jericho fig made)

ok.. thought I would share

ok.. today was odd to say the least.. did alot of cleaning.. organizing but didnt get it all done before mommie got home.. and she didnt kill me!! whooo hooo

chatted with "Tony" tonight.. and we had a really cool conversation.. like we used to have.. I feel alot better about things and glad we can be friends.. he really made me laugh.. something he hadnt done in a long time..

why do they keeping saying future man on this cartoon?!?!

anyways.. watched ROH Do or Die from may 03.. my mom likes Scott more and more everyday.. and so do i LOL..

>>>they keep saying FUTURE MAN!! ARGHHHHHHH<<<<<

ok.. so while i was cleaning.. I found the pics from the first 3pw show.. and that's where I first met P & S.. oh my gosh.. me and Kelly that night.. good times.. good times.. speaking of that phrase.. I wonder how Sherilyn is.. I havent talked to her since like august and havent even tried to get ahold of her since then.. hmm maybe I'll try to give her a call or something over the weekend. just to see what she's been up to...

Ray has been rewriting the words to a certain song.. he's got problems.. lol.. but then again.. dont we all?? LOL..

IF THEY SAY FUTURE MAN ONE MORE TIME I AM GONNA SCREAM!

ARGH they did it again!!

alright.. back to this entry..just about everyone but me, Des and Jan are going to the World 1/CZW double header.. which is fine with me.. I have alot coming up in like the next 7 weeks.. which is like insane!!! I'm gonna get as much work in and get my ass in gear.. I really wanna travel again this summer.. and wanna do it myself.. ya know.. not by myself. i wanna have my kick ass friends with me.. :)

OH.. josy informed me of the Raven spreading his wisdom cruise going on.. I would prob jump off that boat.. lol.. let me tell you.. I do wanna get on the boat.. just NOT that one!! YEAAAAAHHH :)

OK.. the pro bowl is this weekend.. 6 Rams have been selected.. including my double main man MARC BULGER BABY!!
Bitch ass Mcnabb and Favre are injured.. whoooooooo (not Farve) so Marc def gets alot of playing time!! OH YEA Baby!! GO NFC!! :) although *someone* claims its not a real football game.. blah to him..

anyways.. I gotta finish cleaning.. and get to sleep.. got the sweet midday shify of 12-8 tomorrow.. whooo baby.. no open no close.. all is good..

this goes out to someone..I thought was different..

Of all the things I've believed in,
I just want to get it over with,
tears form behind my eyes,
but I do not cry,
counting the days that pass me by.

I've been searchin' deep down in my soul;
words that I'm hearin' are starting to get old,
it feels like I'm starting all over again,
The last three years were just pretend,
and I said...

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.

I still get lost in your eyes,
and it seems that I can't live a day without you,
closing my eyes,
and you chase my thoughts away,
to a place where I am blinded by the light,
but it's not right.

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold on to.

Ooh whoa....
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,
I want what's yours and I want what's mine,
I want you,
but I'm not giving in this time.

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto
Goodbye to you, (goodbye to you)
goodbye to everything I thought I knew, (goodbye to you)
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto,
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)

Oh, oh whoa, oh, oh (one thing that i tried to hold onto)
and when the stars fall I will lie awake,
you're my shooting star.

ok.. its now 2:30.. my mom is gonna be home in about 5 and a half hours.. SO not good.. cause I slept till about 1pm today.. and I have to clean the whole apartment and pack stuff up for storage.. I have TOO much stuff.. lol anyways.. I really really really have to start it.. bt my main problem is.. especially with cleaning and all. I gotta be in like the mood for it.. but its like a now or never situation.. so if I'm not around for a few hours.. ya'll know why..lol...

the best advice comes from a friend:

let it go

who gives a fuck

a week ago at this time.. I was with an awesome guy.. and was in a world of my own.. with population 2 :)

now.. this week.. more even.. today.. I talked to Shellie this afternoon and we start to go over Cali plans.. I cannot believe I'll be there in 2 weeks!! whoooo and I tell her how Bill Apter wants me to shoot the UPW show for him.. I contact Rick Bassman from UPW.. tell him my deal and all.. (a lil more professional than that..LOL) and a couple hours later.. he emails me back and says its not a problem at all. :) So yes.. I will be shooting ringside for UPW"s 5th Anniversary show featuring Kevin Nash & Scott Hall!!
So after work.. I go to call Shellie to let her know the news.. and then *it* happens.. I open my phone to call her and I see.. CALL FROM FRANKIE KAZARIAN on my phone.. normally.. I would be all giddy and excited about this.. and instead.. I'm more like.. what do you want? LOL we talked for a bit.. and I can admit.. it was alot different than usual with him.. then my double main man MTizzle calls me and makes the save. thanks Bro! I talked to Mike for a long time and I really realized some things about Frankie I was so blinded before about.. so we'll see now.. we got 2 weeks..

Anyways.. I learned tonight in addition to being a "doctor" I'm also a computer tech & camera installer assistant :)
There's something else going on.. but I cant think of it.. oh well..